Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Angry with God

Writer Renae Brumbaugh wrote a thought-provoking post on her blog a couple of weeks ago about being angry at God that set me to thinking.

In my humanity, there have been times in my own life when I'm ashamed to admit that I've been *ahem* a little miffed with God, not angry to the point of being just downright sinful, but to the extent that the anger so filled me that I couldn't pray or read my Bible or do any of the things that fostered fellowship with Him. To be honest, during those times I would put him on 'ignore' just as I would have an errant suitor who disappointed me in his pursuit of me.

The reasons have been varied, whether it be that He blessed an enemy in an area that I was looking for a blessing, He showed mercy on one whom I felt undeserving of mercy, or He sent a time of trial and suffering in my life that I felt unjust.  The causes of my anger have ranged from the minuscule to the great, but all justified in my frail human sight at those particular times.  A greater level of spiritual maturity has mitigated the frequency of these occasions of anger, but they have occurred nonetheless. 

I thank God daily for continually teaching me about the peace that comes with trusting and believing His Word and accepting His Divine Will.  My gratitude knows no bounds for the gift of perfect faith.  I know deep down inside that His thoughts are not my thoughts. I most of all thank Him for His mercy and grace in that the very anger and justice that I may have wished rained down on others could have been rained down on me for my own imperfections.

My prayer is that I be found walking worthy of His commandments when He comes back to take us home.

Have you ever been angry with God?  How did you deal with it? Did you learn anything from the experience?

"Be ye angry, and sin not:..." Ephesians 4:26a