Wednesday, September 7, 2011

What is Your Place in Eternity?

This last week has been very difficult for me. Over the course of a few short days a faithful neighbor was killed a few feet away from my house and a beloved and much respected church member passed away unexpectedly. My mind has been playing nonstop memory loops of conversations, experiences, and correspondences created during my associations with these two friends. My thoughts won't stop running, and I can't sleep.

As death has once again diverged like a road in the wood of my life I have to stop and wonder about my place in eternity. I love my Heavenly Father, but life has maneuvered me into a circumstance where I am so BUSY that I can't seem to get my priorities in proper spiritual order. I know that I have blogged about this before, but my work continues to consume a great portion of my waking life and has created an extraordinary imbalance. To add to this, people, including some church people, have disappointed me to the point that I must confess that I have a sourness in my spirit right now, but that's a post for another time.

It was such a subtle transition that I don't even know how I got off track and can't seem to find my way back to rightsiding things to the way that they are supposed to be. As much as I live, breathe, talk, and try to represent God I find it shameful that I've allowed myself to be found here. As much as He has given and continues to give for us, the little bit of service that He expects in return is not too much for Him to ask.

As I continue to ponder my life and hopefully receive guidance from the Holy Spirit as to which path I should take to get back to where I should be I will continue to try to get a glimpse of the big picture. It's time to put His business first without excuse. As an old Nike advertising campaign used to say, "Just Do It."

I feel as if someone has thrown a cold wash rag on my sleeping face, and it's time to wake up.

Have you pondered your own place in eternity? If so, where did you see yourself? Do you find yourself putting God's interests first in your own life or has "busyness" overtaken you also?

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

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